My minds' got a mind of its' own.

Have you ever thought about what you thought before? Wondered if you would have made the same decision if you knew more? It's complicated, don't you see. Growing wiser doesn't make life very easy. As one learns more and more, there is less that can be overlooked and pretend not to be seen. All in all, I wouldn't have it any other way, for I want to know what I am, and know the world around me. I don't want to look for excuses, only admit my faults. With the abilities, blessings,love, money, knowledge, wisdom, and shear desire I don't ever want to make any excuse for not leading a good life. Neither should you. Think about it, did you really not have the time? You had time for the television, time for the wife, time for the dog, time for the sleep, time for anything, time for everything. I know I had the time, even though I said it was limited in the past. I know that it is infinite now. If I am not able to complete my PhD, I won't have any excuses other than I must have stopped trying. If I am unable to run the dryer vent under my house and fix the plumbing, it wasn't becuase I wasn't capable, it was because I was lazy. No more excuses. No more excuses. My own mind will be my toughest barrier to overcome no matter what I strive for, and I wouldn't want to have it any other way. My mind will be the tallest wall I have to climb. My mind will be largest hole I have to dig myself out of. My mind will be the slipperiest surface that keeps me from moving fast. My mind will be the only thing that can stop me from the spirit. So I chose to leave that mind behind, and start living from the soul. Not thinking, not trying to rationalize, and not dreaming of false realities. I love the people around me, and "in this moment I am happy." This moment might just last as long as I can comprehend, which is all the longer it has to last.