Where?

When? where? who? I don't know. The silence or a sound? A preverbial substitute without bound. Slope of that tangent line? I sure don't know, but what about that dime? Perhaps a time when there were few. Few clutters to trouble the absence of the complex. However, ever so slight that "restless wind" blows, I will take it. No matter how subtle the answer is spoken, I'll take it. You probably weren't there at the time, but neither was I. So goofy and rebellious without the truth. Which brings us back to now.

My minds' got a mind of its' own.

Have you ever thought about what you thought before? Wondered if you would have made the same decision if you knew more? It's complicated, don't you see. Growing wiser doesn't make life very easy. As one learns more and more, there is less that can be overlooked and pretend not to be seen. All in all, I wouldn't have it any other way, for I want to know what I am, and know the world around me. I don't want to look for excuses, only admit my faults. With the abilities, blessings,love, money, knowledge, wisdom, and shear desire I don't ever want to make any excuse for not leading a good life. Neither should you. Think about it, did you really not have the time? You had time for the television, time for the wife, time for the dog, time for the sleep, time for anything, time for everything. I know I had the time, even though I said it was limited in the past. I know that it is infinite now. If I am not able to complete my PhD, I won't have any excuses other than I must have stopped trying. If I am unable to run the dryer vent under my house and fix the plumbing, it wasn't becuase I wasn't capable, it was because I was lazy. No more excuses. No more excuses. My own mind will be my toughest barrier to overcome no matter what I strive for, and I wouldn't want to have it any other way. My mind will be the tallest wall I have to climb. My mind will be largest hole I have to dig myself out of. My mind will be the slipperiest surface that keeps me from moving fast. My mind will be the only thing that can stop me from the spirit. So I chose to leave that mind behind, and start living from the soul. Not thinking, not trying to rationalize, and not dreaming of false realities. I love the people around me, and "in this moment I am happy." This moment might just last as long as I can comprehend, which is all the longer it has to last.

Sustainable Spiritual Equilibrium

You might not know what it is you are after, or if you are even after it. Theoretically we all are just cells that make-up the anatomy of the existence of life. Some cells are advantagous for specific activities, while some cells tend to serve more broad functions. All in all, one can make a valid case that all of the cells compose one living society, and this society as whole has evolved and prepetuated itself for a few thousand years now. A few thousand years.... not bad, nothing worth really acknowledging compared to gymnosperms or brachiopods that have been around for hundreds of millions of years. We give ourselves credit for becoming a dominant species, yet we have a few hundred million years before we can hang our hat on that idea. It is easy to look around and ask yourself, "for what purpose does that person serve?" or "why would someone let themselves become so useless?" or how about "those people are incredibly destructive to nature." These thoughts and ideas have ran through all of our minds, but if we look at humanity from the perspective of an owl we would have to wonder, "why on Earth would some creator provide the earth with humans, what good are they?" As a whole, we all have contributed directly or indirectly to the ignorant complexeties that make-up the pitfalls of our society. That being said, we are just like any other organism that begins to dominate its' ecosystem. As our population grows, our demand for resources will increase, and our competition for these resources will likewise increase. Regardless of how good humanity has it, or how much money and luxury everyone has, fundamentally all organisms must struggle to exist. That is the fundamental biological equilibrium. However, we as average Americans should not theoretically struggle to exist as individuals. Most of us have a roof over our heads, and shoes on our feet, but for some reason struggle. Our current struggles have became more of mental struggles than physical ones with mother nature. Keep in mind, all organisms must struggle to exist. Our struggles in the "comfortable age" can best be described by Randy Bachman and Burton Cummings as "The New Mother Nature." This "New Mother Nature" is the mechanism by which we currently struggle, is the means by which large volumes of our population are kept in check. Without struggle, humanity would have over-produced itself a long time ago, and our world would be diminished. Unfortunately, this is what is going to happen, but fortunately our lifespan as humans allows us to live in segments in which we will not experiecne our termination will only feel as if it took place over one second, but was patiently distributed over many lifetimes, therefore not leading to any extreme circumstance that one will have to become mentally obliterated by. Our human existence as we know it is not made difficult by nature anymore, it is made difficult by some force in our own minds. We as humanity used to find our struggle with mother nature. The development of Widespread physically comfortable living conditions must have coincided with mentally uncomfortable living conditions along with The New Mother Nature. We all know what it's like to feel good, but for some reason can't find it for 365 consecutive days. The New Mother Nature is the new driving force behind our struggles and our troubles.
RUNNING PROVIDES A SUSTAINABLE PHYSICAL STRUGGLE THAT WE CAN ALL GRASP IN ORDER TO REDUCE OUR MENTAL STRUGGLE. IF WE ARE ABLE TO ENJOY RUNNING WHILE AT THE SAME TIME RECOGNIZE THAT IT CAN PROVIDE US A MEANS BY WHICH TO STRUGGLE, WE CAN BEGIN TO REALIZE THAT THE NEW MOTHER NATURE IS MERELY A LACK OF PHYSICAL STRUGGLE AND THEREFORE CAN BE IGNORED. WHICH IN TURN WILL BEGIN TO DRAW US CLOSER TO A SUSTAINABLE SPIRITUAL EQUILIBRIUM.